movies

objective: watch movies five days a week. take advantage of free movie sources to catch up on culture.

go through freely available movies on this thread in the order listed. ugh i'm going to need to spend a disgusting amount of time on movies.

stick to something

interests you have maintained: reading, writing, japanese, making music videos.

reading

read all the kindle books.

writing

journal for at least .5hr every day. fiction is okay. if your mind is blank, use tarot cards.

japanese

maintain wanikani-->might pay, might switch to an anki deck? continue trying to read cardcaptor sakura.

making music videos

babe you have no rhyme or reason to this. you do not listen to music. you feel compelled to make videos every so often. i honestly do not understand why i keep having ideas for these and spending time on them. setting a goal seems so strange. i am struck by a burst of creativity, i do the thing, and then i lie dormant until another familiar song takes hold of me. i don't even listen to new music.

actually: listen to a new album every workday. start it on walk1, finish it on walk2. i'd say "explore a genre" but your choice in genres has no rhyme or reason either. just stick to music with lyrics and you'll be golden, alright?

maybe a second goal: finish one storyboard OR shitty video per week. remember: every time you storyboard the video, you are more likely to see it to the end, even if the entire thing only takes a few hours. so...do more! maybe you can have more storyboards than you have finished projects, and maybe that's okay.

"you never talk about these" because i post them online and i appear in them, mmmk? i'll stop talking now.

be more healthy

• use the supplements and powders
• track eating (protein!!!)
• exercise routine must include: pushups, pullup exercises, that list of back/delt/shoulder exercises.
• hygiene
• cleaning...
• put on makeup too...

jesus christ what even do normal people do

i think i need / want to watch chainsaw man.

emotional regulation

microdose dark souls

don't you need to talk to people?

--- said i'm "like an insect buzzing in his ear." this about sums up my interactions with everyone ever. i don't know how to offer more value to people. i don't know how to be interesting. i seem to be too weird to be worthwhile, and too insubstantial to be worth anything. i mean the most interesting part of my day today is that i started reading an interesting book, or maybe it's that i bought six new cans of coffee, or it could also be that i???

and who are you, exactly?

y'know what? i'm going to find a pdf of one of those '1001 questions about me' kind of journals. and then i'm going to answer a question in every diary entry. and that's going to be my month. aren't you excited to read about it? i can sense your excitement. to be fair, if someone asked my what my favorite meal was, i'd stare at them for a few seconds while trying to remember what meals exist, which of those meals i've eaten, which of those meals i liked, and which of those meals was my favorite. it would vary depending on the day. right now i'm thinking of any number of spicy ramen dishes i've had at restaraunts. closely followed by any variety of general tso's chicken, then crab rangoons, and then enchiladas. i'm on a smoked fish kick right now though. i bought tilapia again. it is defrosting and i cannot wait to put it in the oven and then in my mouth.

websites i am allowed to visit:

• if i have a specific movie to watch, i can visit youtube / pluto / tubi.
• i can visit wanikani to study. i can only visit the forum to check on the cardcaptor sakura threads.
• i can use google sheets to update my finances and exercise spreadsheets.
• if i run out of books (doubtful), i am allowed to obtain more.
• i can use librarything to log my reading and write reviews. i cannot look at book recommendations until i finish everything on my kindle.
• websites i cannot use: neocities, pinterest, non-movie youtube.
• that's a lie. i dislike the way i browse neocities, collect ideas of things to do, and then don't do them. so i can update + read once a week. but block it out in the calendar. and collect a list of links to things i want to do---pixel cliques, ideas, etc---so that i can follow up on them.
• my switch isn't technically a website. that being said i can only use it for 30min a day.

re. consistency

NO NEW HOBBIES. NO NEW CURIOSITIES. well curiosity is okay! but it's spent so much time killing the cat that the cat doesn't remember its a cat.